Below are the 14 most recent journal entries recorded in joe mama's LiveJournal:

Sunday, October 7th, 2001
8:40 pm	this is a journal full of jealousy so don't waste your time reading my bitching. I was talking on the phone to Ariel tonight and i asked her how she and john (her b/f that she chose over me) were doing.she said good and after a little convincing i got her to elaborate and she went on how he was so sweet and how she loves sweet guys and such. am i the only one who sees the hypocrisy here? i mean i spent two hours making her soup when she felt bad can anyone think of something more sweet then that? i always opened her door i mean i played my cards perfectly had the perfect hand and yet somehow i still managed to lose. WTF? i know it's the oldest sin in the book as old as cain and able but i can't help feeling so jealous of john. i haven't ever met him but i have 10 bucks that he is an ass. the asses always get the girl and it's a load of shit. i tell my friends i gave up on girls they laugh and reply "so are you gay?" i smile and give a simple no so they ask "so that only leaves animals" again i smile and say no they in their happiness joke around with me whilst i am all alone they finally ask "then what then?" and i am forced to reply cars (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 2nd, 2001
12:09 am	i wrote this and i thought i would share. i likke the words to it but the flow just isn't there tell me what you think As the hour of midnight approaches I have had the epiphany that I love you This is a love that has never before touched my soul And though you do not return this feeling It refuses to leave Every time you walk by my heart skips a beat Every word out of your mouth is worth hearing Even if you are mindlessly rambling I love the sound of your voice It refuses just as stubbornly to leave my head Your friendship is worth more then you could possibly know And through all the idiocy and jealousy I couldn?t stand to lose you Each night before I sleep I recount my day and every thing I said to you Cursing myself at each mistake and blunder For fear of you finding me incompetent Please don?t think me obsessive Or as one of those scary stalker guys I?ve never felt this way before And I?m still unsure how to express it But I thought this was a good start I know I?ve done some stupid things And said some stupid things as well And for this I am truly sorry I want your friendship more then words can say For I love you (Comment on this)
Monday, October 1st, 2001
6:23 pm	well you know it's been several months since i wrote in here but i really need to vent today. a little while after i stopped writing i started to like a girl named Ariel. Ariel is on my water polo team, we went to california together for a tournament a started to really like her so i got her number and we started hanging out. BTW the first time i asked to go to the movies with me she stated that she did not want a relationship and so it would only be as friends/ we hung out every weeked for about the next month and a half with me never stopping likeing her and actually likeing her even more. At this point she is claiming that she still does not want a relationship only to tell me 3 days later that she has had a botfriend for the last 3 weeks. i was hurt by this but i got over it in about a day and we went out to dinner the next night and such continueing on with our friendship. At this point i am still hoping that i have a miniscule chance of somedayt getting with her. Just recently we went to another water polo tournament in texas at which on the last night everyone excluding myself got drunk. she hooked up with another guy on my team named tyler. at this point it's only a rumer i had heard so i asked her about it the night we got back and she told me no she didn't hook up wth him. well i was talking to tyler today and he told me the storyt of them hooking up so i IMed it on to her and she said "oh" at whitch point i went why do you lie to me? and the stated never mind i'm going to dinner. i don't even know why i am so hurt by this. maybe it's because i think for the first time in my life i am actually in love and it hurts so much jujst cause she wants to be nothing more then friends if that i can't really tell right now. now i'm kinda down and my parents took me out for my birthday dinnerr (my b-day really tommorow but whatever)and they were jumping on me for not being happy and bringing everyone else down and all this other bullshit that i really don't care about right now. Ariel always says that i am one of her best friends, but what i don't get is if i'm one of her best friends why can't she tell me whats going on in her life? i mean i completly understand that she is way out of my league i mean she is so smart she's funny (even in the sarcastic way like me), and on top of that she is amazingly pretty. i knew going into this that i had about a 2% chance to begin with and then she got a boyfriend but you know i still had a chance if they ever broke up. but now she can't even tell me what's happening in her life without lieing so i'm assuming that my official chance with her is 0. well i had no one else to bitch about that to so i guess you livejopurnal readers can read it and tell me what a loser i am. I find it funny that i always tell people that people who lie to you arn't worth your time and they tell me but i like them so much. you may be why is that funy but the reason is ois because i always make fun of them cause they follow feelings not logic that the person will hurt themn over and over angain but now i understand that i was the idiot. i mean ariel could kick me in the nuts every day and that woul;d hurt (not only physically but mentally as well) and i would still look forward to seeing her every day even though it would only cause more pain. well i am now done bitching and if you read this it has probably been a glorious waste of time. well thatnks for being there livejournal even if i only write oncve every 3 or 4 months (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, July 20th, 2001
10:38 pm	man i just saw some of the most fucked up shit ever!! if you happen to hit the random button and i came up i want you to e-mail me at wood_144@hotmail.com to protest this inhumane practice. by know your probably asking what the fuck is this wacko talking about...well i'm talking about bonzai kittens. they take a cat and shove it in a bottle so it devopes into the shape of the bottle. we're trying to get a shitload of names to send to the humane society about this so please help! any way on a much brighter note i had a great day. i did absolutly nothing untuill i went to water polo and we actually passed and shot today!!! however i came home looking forward to a conversation with my good friend ashley from florida...however she is not on nor was she on last night maybe i said something wrong and she doesn't waa talk anymore :( oh well i hope she's on tommorow cause it's gonna be a long day at work. oh i almost forgot avrils bringing me cookies!:) well i'll shut up now cause your prolly sick of reading what i have to say so goodnight y'all...heh i'm from texas now! Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: pennywise-fuck authority (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 18th, 2001
1:21 am	GOD FUCKING DAMNIT....and thats all i'm gonna say today Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: ben folds five-Brick (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 15th, 2001
10:27 pm	hello again to all my faithful readers i haven;t written in 2 dayys because i had nothing to say to anyone. I'm back now...i guess...i don't know leave me alone. Megan and i broke up today and i feel reallyt bad cause it was only me that wanted to break up. i think i hurt her pretty bad. megan i'm sorry but i had to break up with you i hope you understand. on a much brighter note i made$9.27 in tips at work today in only 5 and a half hours! well i'm done now so have a nice night everyone! Current Mood: discontent Current Music: the ofspring-original prankster (Comment on this)
Friday, July 13th, 2001
12:56 am	"I went on a diet, swore of drinking and heavy eating, and in fourteen days I lost two weeks." --- Joe E. Lewis "Ours is a world where people don't know what they want and are willing to go through hell to get it." --- Don Marquis "If you wish to experiance true joy, then do the followingClose your eyes and act as if you were five. Thats it.": I count religion but a childish toy, / And hold there is no sin but ignorance. -The Jew of Malta, prologue- We are students of words: we are shut up in a schools and colleges and recitation-rooms for ten or fifteen years, and come out at last with a bag of wind, a memory of words, and do not know a thing. -Ralph Waldo Emerson The significant problems we face cannot be solved at the same level of thinking we were at when we created them. -Albert Einstein A good Conscience Make a Good Pillow. -Alwayz wondered why i dun sleep Well hah i like this one^ Love is a fire, But whether it is to warm your hearth or burn down your house, you can never tell. -Joan Crawford "Restlessness and discontent are the first necessities of progress." -Thomas A. Edison "Modern man thinks he loses something - time - when he does not do things quickly. Yet he does not know what to do with the time he gains - except kill it. -Erich Fromm "Only a person who can deceive can be honest." -Joseph Raz "Whoever undertakes to set himself up as a judge of Truth and Knowledge is shipwrecked by the laughter of the gods." -Albert Einstein look at the mindless droning on of searching copying and pasting of qoutes. however, on a brighter not, this has releived my irritation about the world. fear not for i still believe it has gone to shit.But, i am no longer angry about this. i sound like i'm in theripy or something so i'll shut up so you can stop reading my mindless drone that is occoring every night about this time. good night to all of my 2 faithful readers. Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: bliss 66- sooner or later (again dont ask for i do not know) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:12 am	hey look at me no one is online. i have 16 buddies that all used to be insomniacs like me and no one is on at 12:06. i guess i'm the only true hardcore insomniac. well any way i've decided that the world has gone to shit. nobody bothers to teach their offspring anything! i was at work today and this little girl came in and bought three carmel apples. she didn't have enough money so i, being the woderful person i am, took the difference out of my tip cup leaving me with about 40 cents. the little girl took her apples and ran off without having the common courtasy to say thank you. no don't read this and bitch at me about how she's just a little girl and all that bullshit. it's not the girl i have a bone to pick with oh no...it's her parents i want to beat them with a stick. (4 more days...well technically 3) Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Skrape- Isolated (don't ask me i've never heard of them either) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 11th, 2001
11:32 pm	1.What time is it? 11:12PM 2. Name as it appears on your birth certificate: Benjamin J Wood 3. Nick Name: nipples 4. Parents names: Beth and Ted 5. Number of candles that appeared on you last birthday cake: 16 6. Date that you regularly blow them out? October 2 7. Pets: woof woof and gerbil 8. Eye color: hazel 9. Hair color: dirty blonde 10. Piercing: none as of yet 11. Tattoos: I want one 12. How much do you love your job? I hate it 13. Hometown: Albuquerque, New Mexico 14. Current Residence: see above 15. Been in love? yes 16. Been to Africa: no 17. Been toilet papering? Once or twice 18. Loved somebody so much it made you cry? not yet 19. Been in a car accident? nope 20. Last Traffic Ticket Received: 81mph in a 65mph zone woops! 21. Croutons or bacon bits? croutons 22. Sprite or 7-UP? sprite 23. Favorite movie: fight club 24. Favorite Holiday: christmas 25. Favorite day of the week: friday 26. Favorite word or phrase: favorite word: spatula 27. Favorite Toothpaste: crest 28: Favorite Author: stephen king 29. Favorite Flowers: roses 30. Favorite Drink: dr. pepper! 31. Favorite Sport to watch: watching is for little girls 32. Preferred type of ice cream: chocolate fudge brownie 33. Favorite Sesame Street Character: snufalufigus 34. Disney or Warner Bros.? disney 35. Favorite Fast Food Restaurant: mcdonalds 36. When was your last hospital visit? when I broke my arm in 6th grade 37. What color is your bedroom carpet? I can?t see it its dark 38. How many times did you fail your permit or drivers test? none 39. Who is the last person you got mail from before this? Jokes@inyourrmail.com 40. Have you ever been convicted of a crime? nope 41. Which single store would you choose to Max out your credit card? Best buy 42. What do you do most often when you are bored? Sit at my computer 43. Name the person that you are friends with that lives the farthest away: david 44. Most annoying thing? When computers don?t work 45. Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to respond? I didn?t send this to anyone yet 46. Favorite all time TV show: The simpszns 47. Last person you went out to dinner with: dinner? Uh whoever was in my store when I was eating I looooooooooveeeeeeeeeeeee you who ever you are 48. Last Movie: the fast and the furious 49. Favorite Color: green 50. Least Favorite thing u like to do: wake up 51. Favorite Band: A New Found Glory 52. What is your dream: to be a porn stud wow that was the most unfun thing i did today except work.I HATE MY JOB! i guess thats why i'm looking for another one. and my legs still hurt from running so much. and i'm sure whoever reads this doesn't want to hear me bitch anytmore so i'll stop. have a good night. and always remember " dream as if you'll live forever but live like you'll die tommoro" "who is good and who is evil? lets kill everyone and let your god sort it out Current Mood: devious Current Music: soundgarden- spoonman (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 10th, 2001
1:06 am	well....i'm back from my trip to utah. i'm so sick of hearing things about mormons my teeamates just wouldn't shut up about them.it realy got on my nerves. i actually put my own teammate in a headlock to make him shut up. oh well...we got fourth place without our 2 best players so i was really proud of how well we did.but drivving 22 hours for a 3 day tournament is a little out of controll. i really don't have much more to write about so i guess i'll stop now. .... oh wait i almost forgot i met a really cool person online tonight her name is ashley we've been talking for about an hour. don't get jealous megan you know it's only you i love good night Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: the dead lights (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 5th, 2001
2:32 am	well i leave in about three hours and i stil haven't slept at all. maybe i need to see a doctor about this insomnia. well that will have to what till monday cause i leave at 6 in the mornig today. i have to cram into a van with 14 othere people and enjoy the ten hour trip to utah. it's cool though we're going to kick some major ass up there. and i finally getr a new shirt ( a kinda newed one). for those of you out there who don't know i only wear water polo t-shirts. I wore one to school every single day just cause someon said i wouldn't. just goes to show you how stupid i am i guess. well i better try to get some sleep now so i can wake up then hopefully sleep on the way to utah...And Megan since i won't talk to you again for a while remember that i love you and if you need to talk just call the people who replied to your cry for help...K. you better cause i can't lose you. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: korn-friek on a leash (live) i know they suck but it's on the internet radio (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 3rd, 2001
9:12 pm	well i'm back after like 3 days or something like that. my coach got reallyt mad at us and told us to pull our heads out of our asses. she's been a real bitch latley. and it appears that everyone went away. i'll i get now are the auto messages for aol. wow i feel lovred...or not. i think i've been working to much latly cause i'm really burnt out on chocolate. i have to go in tommorow too tro make apples. can you believe the mall is open on the 4th of july? it's ok i guess since i'm leaving thursday and never coming back! actually i get back sunday night but at least it's four days of pure water polo. no work just polo. we got third in this tournament last year nut i think we can win it this year. well i better stop writing cause i don't want to write any more. so for those masses of people who read this i'll talk to you later. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: systom of the down- Sugar (live) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 29th, 2001
1:05 am	i don't know what i did but i think i made megan mad. all day she seemed distant and disconnected. Even when we were online she still didn't want to talk. WHAT DID I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate it when stuff is wring but she won't tell me what. well i'm taking my distressed confused wierd little self to bed. good night world. see you tommorrow...or i gues that would be later today.oh well. Current Mood: weird Current Music: none it's too late (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 28th, 2001
3:05 am	i don't know why i'm doing this it is reeally stupid. mayby its because my girlfriend wants me too....well whatever here i am on live journal for no one to read. boy am i tired but not really it's like i'm tired but i don't want to sleep it's a really wierd feeling. Anyway i had a fairly uneventful day. i went to water polo and scrimmaged against the old guys at UNM...oh yeah and i watched a movie with my girlfriend.That was really fun. i really like her a lot. anyway i have to get up early to go to breakfast tommorow so i should get some sleep. Current Mood: hungry Current Music: new found glory (1 Comment |Comment on this)